It is not the mountain we conquer but ourselves.
- Edmund Hillary
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This quote really got me thinking.
I've always been ambitious, but I've been scared of failure as well.
Fear has stopped me from doing and enjoying WAY to many things in my life.
I see all my friends and peers being more successful than I am.
I wonder why it's taken me so long to realize that i can do it too.
In December, I'll finally earn my Bachelors degree in Psychology.
I'm so excited and proud of myself.
It's taken me a bit longer than others, but i realize that IT'S OK.
There is no contest, we all go at our own pace.
I was telling Rob all of my fears a few nights ago. I told him how i am scared that i might not be smart enough to accomplish my goals, that my mood disorder will somehow hinder me in my dream of becoming a therapist.
But ya know what?
Maybe it will HELP.
I am understanding and empathetic.
I am optimistic and hopeful.
I truly care about others, i have my whole life, even to the point of making myself sick, upset or angry when a close friend is hurting in some way or not being treated the way they deserve to be.
Every therapist or psychiatrist I've ever seen has told me they thought i would make a good therapist.
I finally believe them.
I think i can do it.
I know i can do it.
After we get all settled in California i am going to apply to a few schools and get my MS in Psychology.
I know masters degree programs can be competitive.
I am a good student but i don't always push myself to my true potential.
I have A's in many classes but also a few B's.
That might not be good enough for some schools, but I'll keep trying.
If i have to, I'll take extra classes, I'll get A's in them. I can do it, i just have to put the effort in.
Thank you for listening. ;) I really appreciate any time you take from your day to read about little old me.
Kooky, silly, crazy cat lady, fashion obsessed, book loving
little old me.
love,
fina
