I don't usually get to serious on my blog but i'd like to talk a little bit about why i kind of abandoned my blog from last July till about this March.
Ever since i was about 14 years old i would go through moods of feeling ok, feeling sad, feeling happy, crying for no reason, being super happy & feeling nervous about random things. I didn't really do anything about this throughout high school, thinking i should just try to deal with it. Going 4 years feeling like that and not doing much about it became very tireing. Finally mid way through my senior year i went to see a therapist. She was really nice and i liked talking to her but i still didn't understand how i could feel so sad for no reason at all. So she sent me to a doctor (psych) who gave me some meds & poof within a month i felt better. Alot better, probably too better. I was super happy, outgoing, crazy Gina. That didn't last to long and pretty soon i was back to feeling not so happy again. It turns out your brain can "get used to" a drug and then it stops helping you the way it used to. So for the last 12 years or so I've been on a journey of ups and downs.Feeling good, then feeling bad, always trying new "miracle" medicines that work for awhile and then somehow just stop. So during my blog absence i was going through a not too happy phase, usually they last a a few month's but this last time it lasted almost a year. It's hard to try to post about happy things when your not feeling happy at all.When I started blogging again in April, i came back in full force & realized how much i missed it. I love talking about random things that make me happy (shopping) and hearing what you all think.
My ups and downs have also led to ups and downs in my spending. When i'm sad i don't shop at all, because i don't find joy in it, i'll hole up at home eat & gain weight. Then as i start to feel better the shopping begins.I lose the few pounds I gained, feel good about myself and then remember how fun shopping can be. Iknow I also try to take advantage of this because I'm always wondering " how long will the happiness last this time".I'll realize i've saved up so much money in the sad months of no spending and slowing start breezing through it. Which is fine for a few months, but then it becomes a habit & I end up having to try really hard to curb my spending. I'm at the point right now that I need to put a major halt on spending.
So im challenging myself for the rest of August, to not buy 1 single thing that is not a necessity (even if i think so, cute underwear from target is NOT a necessity!)
So, sorry for being so wordy, thanks to all who are still reading :), just felt like getting this out there because i know that alot of girls deal with similar issues.
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